So here I am, about 5:45pm, back at home after a long but alright day out at TAFE (collage), I hadn't been able to get on the internet since 1 am because of sleep and late for class. I don't know to use my phone so I always look forward to my afternoons and nights in front of my computer.
Anyway I find my mum and brother in the lounge room with Bi-sentinel Man on, Alec on a inflated bed and moaning. Mum says he got that nasty stomach bug. Of course I feel sorry for my poor brother but joke with Mum about not passing it on to us, Mum because she has a P.E. lesson on Monday and me because I just don't want it.
I look back up at the screen and smile at the intro credits for Bi-sentinel Man. My family and I love this tearjerker movie not only for the beautiful story but for the iconic actors. For me it was Sam Neill and obviously and most importantly Robin Williams.
Basically I grew up with this man.
I remembered him as Genie, Alan Parish, Peter Pan, the crazy professor, Teddy Roosevelt, one of the Amigos, Batty, Fender, Mrs Doubtfire, Jack, Andrew, the epic teacher in poetry and of course I remember a quote from a movie I haven't seen: GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING VIETNAM!! This man could make me laugh and I loved all his movies. I could quote his lines word for word and sing and dance 'You ain't never had a friend like me' so enthusiastically it probably would make him laugh. And what I would give to meet this man, I'd be over the moon just to be close to him and probably died of happiness talking to him.
I knew he was a dad and an amazing one at that. Needless to say I was envious of his daughter. I never had a dad (never knew who he was) to dote on, only my grandpa (who actually reminds me of Robin Williams at times), and I would admit to daydreaming him being my dad. But still I looked up to him anyway and kind of hoped one day I would get to meet this great man.
But that hope died in an instant when Mum asked me a question.
"Did you hear about Robin?"
Frowning in confusion, I didn't know any Robins personally, except for a friend's mum but I knew she never met the woman. So I asked, "Robin.....who?"
The look Mum gave me was one of shock. "You don't know?!" It looked like she was trying not to cry. "Robin Williams. He...died earlier today. Suicide."
For a split second I thought Mum was joking, but knowing her she would never kid about this. Then I thought it was just a crazy prank Robin decided to pull on the world. Again Mum wasn't a woman to easily fool and the fact she said it's been all over the news.
So I accepted it for now while I finished making my coffee, eagerly heading to my computer to confirm it as I tried to not cry near my family. I immediately typed in my adored actor's name in Google and read the first thing on the page.....
I swear I heard my heart breaking as the tears silently flooded.
As I continued to read the article, I realised my icon and dream dad had been suffering depression. This man, who could make the world laugh in stitches?! I had no idea and couldn't believe it.
But it was the painful truth and needless to say I haven't stop crying at such a loss of a great man